Can’t hear for lack of sleep
Breathing in the smoking ruins
The rockets in the shadows whispering
Singing in the underground
Love and the never men
Can’t hear for lack of sleep

Looking for the past
Try to slip the script
Gun the lowest plane
Hidden all eyes know
Try to slip the script
Gun the lowest plane
Hidden all eyes know

There’s some use in treating courage
As a remote friend
Learning what it is to lie
Stop crash fall
On a leper mass of swelling glass
Cleaning up the swamps
You are the heart of hearts
Wonder dig and try
Tear it up and learn to bless the readers eye

Dimitri is wearing:

Hair – Mark Shiny Black – MADesigns

Eyes – Looking into my Pastels (Purple) – Exodi

Tattoo – Supreme Lion – Garden of Ku

Cuffs – Brutal Cuffs – Blitzed

Outfit – Lysander (Ash)  – Silent Sparrow

Song is: “Should the world fail to fall apart” by Peter Murphy

And all the words you gave me
I lost on bended knee
But you can’t stop these cravings just by praying they would cease

If I can make a life
Then I can take a life
If I can save a life
Will this life save me?
Time after time
I still seem to find
You’re looking out for me
So wrap your arms around me
Hold me close and don’t let go
Let me lean on you as I think things through
If I don’t we’ll never know

Will your faith save me?
Will I find this place where I belong? (Find this place where I belong)
Can you protect me from my troubles?
Keep me safe from harm?
Will you help me carry on?!

If they can make a law
Then they can break a law
If I can break a law
Will the law break me?
It comes tumbling down again
I can’t comprehend
Is it destiny?
A nomadic state
Are you a refugee?
No place to call your home
Forever walk alone
As the world goes on
Forgotten by the ones you know

Dimitri hates most of you and is wearing:

Skin -Daniel 06 [Nougat] – LAQ

Hair – Caught (M) Coffee – Shag

Sunglasses – Spirit – Role Optic

Tattoo – Viva Zapata! – Garden of Ku

Gloves – Taped Fist (full Fist) – SiniStyle

Cuffs – Brutal Cuffs – Old Leather Black – Blitzed

Jeans – Street Style Frazzled -  Calypso Giano

Poses are by [LAP]

Song is “The Outcast” by The Dropkick Murphys

Fast Tube by Casper

So I started seeing a lot of plurks being flung back and forth about what is bullying, what isn’t bullying, what could be bullying and I thought about it for awhile and now y’all get my two cents.

If you are threatening people for disagreeing with you, you are being a bully. Also, you are being a douche

If you threaten to boycott people for not joining your organization, movement, SL Cause of the Week, you are being a bully.

If you for no reason start making fun of somebody, you are a bully.

If you call somebody out for being a complete asshole, you are NOT being a bully.

Everybody seeing the irony here?

Now, while bullying is a bad thing. I see it sometimes as a necessary thing. If there were no bullying in our school lives we’d come out some really thin skinned criers. Could you imagine if we didn’t toughen up in school? Your boss would tell you that you need to improve your work or yell at you for messing up and there would be waterworks and then everybody would come give you a hug and then you’d all sit around and talk about your feelings instead of sucking it up and fixing the problem.

But, you’ll probably ignore all this. For the next week or so you’ll be more sensitive to the feelings of others. And then that will pass, and you’ll go back to threatening people who disagree with you, don’t join your organization, or cause of the week, you’ll go back to posting pictures of people you think look horrible, and your friends will all laugh with you while you do it. Some of you might not, and for that…good for you. But the rest of you, well you just go on being you. We’ll just remember your behavior next time April 14th comes around.

Dimitri is wearing:

Skin – Daniel 04 Nougat – LAQ

Hair - Modern Rail Dark Brown – Argrace

Shirt Girlfriend’s Shirt – Ambush

Pants Pink Jeans – *Dreams*

Tattoo – La Virgen de Guadalupe – Garden of Ku

Cuffs – Old Leather Cuffs – Blitzed

Glasses – Arcadi – Role Optic

Disclaimer: Look, bullying happens. But this post should no way be considering an endorsement of bullying. I do not actually endorse bullying or the extremes it’s been taken too as we have all seen in the news. These kids need help, blaming it on video games and other crap other than shitty parenting isn’t going to fix the problem.

I thought I was mistaken
I thought I heard you speak
Tell me how do I feel
Tell me now how do I feel

Those who came before me
Lived through their vocations
From the past until completion
They will turn away no more

And I still find it so hard
To say what I need to say
But I’m quite sure that you’ll tell me
Just how I should feel today

I see a ship in the harbor
I can and shall obey
But if it wasn’t for your misfortunes
I’d be a heavenly person today

And I thought I was mistaken
And I thought I heard you speak
Tell me how do I feel
Tell me now how should I feel

Now I stand here waiting

I thought I told you to leave me
While I walked down to the beach
Tell me how does it feel
When your heart grows cold

Dimitri is wearing:

Skin – Daniel Nougat 04 – LAQ

Hair – Bodhi Brown Mocha Splash – Damselfly

Tattoo- Rage – Aitui

Pants- Deconstructed Jeans Blue – Nomine

Shirt- Plain White Tank – Mechanism

Gloves- Biker Gloves – Tonktastic

Belt- Classic Belt – Blitzed

Sunglasses- Recon – Role Optic

Cuffs- Brutal Cuffs – Blitzed

I seriously forgot the names of the poses. They’re all from the Pose Fair exclusive set. Don’t like it….blow me.

Song is Blue Monday by New Order

Fast Tube by Casper

I backed my car into a cop car, the other day.
Well he just drove off, sometimes life’s ok.
I ran my mouth off a bit too much, oh what did I say.
Well you just laughed it off, it was all ok.

A fake Jamaican took every last dime with a scam.
It was worth it just to learn some sleight-of-hand.
Bad news comes don’t you worry even when it lands.
Good news will work its way to all them plans.
We both got fired on exactly the same day.
Well we’ll float on good news is on the way.

And we’ll all float on, ok.
And we’ll all float on, ok.
And we’ll all float on, ok.
And we’ll all float on, alright.
Already we’ll all float on.
No, don’t you worry, we’ll all float on.
Alright, already, we’ll all float on.
Alright, don’t worry, we’ll all float on.

Alright already we’ll all float on.
Alright already we’ll all float on.
Alright don’t worry even if things end up a bit too heavy.
We’ll all float on…alright. Already we’ll all float on.
Alright already we’ll all float on, ok.
Don’t worry we’ll all float on.
Even if things get heavy, we’ll all float on.

Alright already we’ll all float on.
(Alright)
Don’t you worry we’ll all float on.
(Alright)
All float on….

Alright already we’ll all float on.
(Alright)
Don’t you worry we’ll all float on.
(Alright)
All float on….

Dimitri is wearing

Outfit 1:

Shirt – Aural Junkie – FORM

Shorts – Greed Shortpants Black – Blitzed

Skin – Capone Shaved – 007

Belt – Turntable Belt – FORM

Backpack – Backpack – Kal Rau

Headphones – Headphones MDJ-V800 – FNKY

Socks -  Skanky Socks Grey Captain Jack – Primitive Designs

Shoes – All Stars Black – hoorenbeek

Hat/Hair – Baseball cap/back dark brown – Argrace

Outfit 2:

Jeans – Skater Pants – Kal Rau

Tattoo -  Skull Prayer – KAGE

Sunglasses – Recon – Role Optic

Pose for the first picture was  Olive Juice “I can see up your skirt Ma’am”, the rest….I don’t remember. From [LAP] though.

Song was “Float on” by Modest Mouse

Fast Tube by Casper

Now as I have learned in my short time in Second Life, when you are choosing a club to seek employment at you need to take several things into consideration. They are the following:

• How the club looks: If you are not into the goth scene, then dancing in a club that has a goth setting probably will not be the right fit for you. The same can be said for any other type of themed build. Punk, grunge, medieval, country, the list goes on.
• The location: Clubs that are in the center of a large mall are likely to have a lot of lag, which as a dancer can be very frustrating as it is for everybody else involved in the affair. Also, this is where we can get into the debate of parcel clubs versus sim clubs. If a club is on a parcel then there is the chance that it is going to be a smaller venue. Traffic may not be very high or the owner prefers to keep things small, or they may be just starting. On the other side of that coin, clubs located on its own sim could indicate that they have a reasonably high amount of traffic, are well established, and have done well for themselves. Well enough to cover the costs of having it’s very owns sim. Of course, most of what I have just said are assumptions especially since I don’t own a club and I suspect much like the venture of owning a real life club Second Life Clubs are very pretty money pits.
• The application process: Which will be covered in the next paragraph.

After some extensive searching of the classifieds and some of the forums help wanted sections, I finally arrived at the Sixx Pack landing zone. I liked the build, it had clean lines and was well lit and you could tell that some thought went into the layout. And this may apply only to audiophiles like myself, but I liked the music I was hearing when I hit the sim.  The applications were located in plain sight when you landed. So I picked one up for becoming a dancer and the other for becoming a DJ (best to cover ones bases depending on skill set I think). The application process in and of itself is fairly straight forward. Here is a sampling of things they will more than likely ask you.

• Your Second Life Name
• How many events you can work a week. If you can only work one, you are less likely to get hired than the guy who puts down a higher number
• Any previous experience you have had
• They will ask you if this is your primary ID or if you are an alt. They want to make sure that they are not rehiring somebody they have fired.
• Your real life date of birth. Before you say that may be an invasion of privacy, it is simply a way for an adult club to cover their ass as it were. It is all fun and games till the dancer gets revealed to be a minor.
• They might ask if you are willing to change the appearance of your avatar. This is fairly self explanatory. Most clubs are going for a certain “look”. They want to know if you, the potential employee are willing to work with them to achieve this look.
• A sample emote. You are being paid to flirt with women. They want to know if you have the chops.
• Two pictures of yourself usually one head shot and one fully nude. They want to know what you are bringing to the table as it were.
• When you are available. If you are not available when they hold events then what exactly is the point of continuing the process.
• A variety of other things. From how would others describe your personality, do why you want to work at the club you are applying to.

When you finish off you application, double check for spelling errors, make sure the app is titled properly.  And turn it in exactly how they say. Sixx Pack for example, you drop the notecard off in the box where you got it from. Some clubs prefer you hand it off to a person but in my four months in Second Life I have learned that Second Life enjoys eating inventory and item transactions.  And then the waiting game begins. Have patience, most places will let you know one way or another.

When you get contacted about your application, that is when the interview process has begun. I am loathe to put this so bluntly, but when you hear from the manager you sent the application to, don’t be a dick. Club Managers are usually very busy and have little to no time for it.  You will be asked what a good time is for you. Once the time and date are settled you will meet. For Sixx Pack, I met with their dance manager, a gentleman named BigJ Zunimoor. We talked for awhile about what the job entails and a hostess came in to give me a trial run. I was asked to dance on stage (they want to be sure you have suitable dances. Do not worry if you do not, they will usually hand you a notecard telling you where to grab them). You will also be asked to participate in some roleplaying. Give sample emotes to the hostess like you would the client. From there, you are asked to disrobe and display the goods as it were. This is actually a pretty important thing since you are applying at an adult club and if all goes well you will be spending most of your time naked. I will be covering prim cocks and appearance in Part Two though, so let us move on. When being interviewed, do not be afraid to ask questions. Most places want intelligent dancers. Ones that can creatively emote and adapt to certain situations. Asking questions is an excellent way to show you have a brain in your head. After the interview process you will usually be thanked for coming and informed that they will get back to you. From there, it is a waiting game. I was informed shortly that they would love to give me a trial run as a dancer and was given a few notes about my appearance and emotes.

And that ladies and gentlemen, is Part One of Diary of a Male Dancer. Next week, I will be covering appearance, clothing, and of course the prim penis. I hope you enjoyed reading it.

Dimitri is wearing:

Skin – Ewan SK1 – Belleza

Hat/Hair – Billy Destroyed  – MADesigns

Shirt – L7 Ringer – Form

Jeans – Extrusion Low Rise – WMD

Necklace 1 – Dog Tags – SiniStyle

Necklace 2 – Power Crystal Red Jasper – EarthStones

Tattoo – The Rock Sleeves – Garden of Ku

Sunglasses – Spirit – Role Optic

Bracelets – Brutal Cuffs – Blitzed

When you came in the air went out.
And every shadow filled up with doubt.
I don’t know who you think you are,
But before the night is through,
I wanna do bad things with you.

I’m the kind to sit up in his room.
Heart sick an’ eyes filled up with blue.
I don’t know what you’ve done to me,
But I know this much is true:
I wanna do bad things with you.

When you came in the air went out.
And all those shadows there are filled up with doubt.
I don’t know who you think you are,
But before the night is through,
I wanna do bad things with you.
I wanna do real bad things with you.
Ow, ooh.

I don’t know what you’ve done to me,
But I know this much is true:
I wanna do bad things with you.
I wanna do real bad things with you

What I am wearing:

Skin – Ash Vampire (Bites) – Avid

Hair - Niran Hair Jet Black – /Wasabi Pills/

Eyes – Vetro Eyes Grey – Exodi

Shirt- Xouf Tee – :Form:

Gloves – Fingerless Fishnet Gloves – Sn@tch

Pants – Python Latex (Black) – Sn@tch

Boots – Military Boots Loose (used black) – hoorenbeek

Bracers – Azrael Bracers – SiniStyle

Arm Straps – Osiris Arm Straps – SiniStyle

Collar – Posture Collar – SiniStyle

Leg Straps - Osiris Leg Straps – SiniStyle

Goggles - Celtic Chrome Goggles – Mirage Industries

Belt — Plugged Belt – Blitzed

Pictures taken at The Motel 666 and The Volcano Room @ Pulse